overflow

Wish I could run out free
But I can't hold myself sober
Don't know if my friends noticed
But I'm slowly getting colder
At this point I'm just waiting
For all of it to be over
Plus I never believed in that
It'll be okay when you're older
Locked my pain up in a drawer
Lifted myself up of the floor
I guess I should feel alive by now
All this bullshit I keep buying
Should keep me away from crying
So why do I feel like I'm about to overflow
Used to run to break out
Before I started to feel tired
Want to make myself heard
But I've never felt this quiet
Never been so unsure
'Bout if I have what's required
I can't put myself first
Not when I am no damn comfort
Locked my pain up in a drawer
Lifted myself up of the floor
I guess I should feel alive by now
All this bullshit I keep buying
Should keep me away from crying
So why do I feel like I'm about to overflow
I won't dare to say a word
No matter how hard it hurts
Got my way to deal with it
If I don't show than I don't feel
I don't know no more what's real
Why do I feel like I'm about to overflow
Why do I feel I've lost control
Why does the music sound so low
I am about to overflow