Comes Out Sideways

I been thinking bout the future and its all overwhelming
Running round my mind getting lost
I can't trust my feet
To lead or to follow
When I jump deep
I always land shallow
Cause it all comes out sideways
And everyday feels like any other day
And then you call, I sit up straight
But I fall back, in all my old ways
And it comes out sideways
Gonna play this one to my therapist on weds
I hope he says breakdowns look like progress
I can't fall asleep
Chased by a monster
I jumped too deep
Wish I had fallen for another
Cause it all comes out sideways
And everyday feels like any other day
And then you call, I sit up straight
But I fall back, in all my old ways
And it comes out sideways