Amused

Endlessly wondering
Wondering why it always takes so much time
To get here
Always on the outside looking in
Endlessly flirting
With the idea that it might not be me
Lust makes you blind
Face against the glass fogging up your sins
Just like in class
I was always picked last
I guess I'm just used it, but
It never gets easier

And I don't wanna question my reflection
Feeling I should count my blessings
Friends telling me I'm a catch, it's not fiction it's fact
Shouldn't let someone treat me like that

I'm not confused, I'm just amused
You're beating me down like the others have too
And I'm not surprised it all fell through
But it's weighing me down like the rain in my shoes

Hopelessly searching
Trying to find a little peace for my mind
Is it me?
Holding on too long, never letting go
Can you just check
Am I wearing a sign on my head?
A flag painted red
Swinging in a hurricane
It always hurts the same
You'd think I'd be used to it, but
I'm just gonna laugh it off

And I don't wanna question my reflection
Feeling I should count my blessings
Slung with pillow princesses and dead ends
Never get a say
Shouldn't let you treat me this way

I'm not confused, I'm just so amused
You're beating me down like the others have too
And I'm not surprised it all fell through
But it's weighing me down like the rain in my shoes

No, I'm not surprised
Oooooooo
But it's weighing me down
Rain in my shoes