Bittersweet Candy

Hiding drugs in the room i grew up in
I never thought i'd get here
I'm more empty than i've ever been
My lips pressed on a joint

I feel like my skin is breakin in pieces
My body hurts pretty bad
The joy for a new day decreases
Longest nightmare i've ever had.

I miss the awful taste of a pill
Bittersweet candy filled with joy
I hate it but i love it, still
Self harm is what i enjoy

White lines, nosebleeds everwhere
My chest is now made of glass
I can't breathe this heavy air
"You'll be fine and it will pass".

I don't want to help myself
Please, hand me another beer
Caught myself dreaming of death
I can't handle another year

I miss the awful taste of a pill
Bittersweet candy filled with joy
I hate it but i love it, still
Self harm is what i enjoy