expensive - live

I counted four friends
Not if you count my boyfriend
Hes wasting his twenties
Teaching me how to breathe
I wont reply to texts
Not even if you paid me
So this is self destructing
Should limit casualties

Psych says not to worry
No one thinks
About you, honey
At least that's what I took
Away from it
Why'd I pay her half my rent
To say I'm just crying
For attention
Like some year four
In detention and why is she
So expensive I'd like
To feel expensive

I started drinking decaf find
That hard to admit I've heard
It makes you sadder
But takes away the jitters
Psych says not to worry
Psych says no one thinks
You're funny when you're
That self deprecating
Have you thought of medication
All the times she took my money
I couldn't tell you what I funded
Just that she's expensive
I'd like to feel expensive

I counted four friends
That number's now decreasing
I guess I had it coming