Destroyer of the gods

[Verse 1]
You arm the pin to pop balloons I send up
I languish in the desert
You refuse to fill my cup

Slept on a bed of nails
To make you want me more
I force a smile
While I beat my head against the floor

[Chorus]
Maybe I'll tear you down
Can you hear my little tantrum now?
I'll puppeteer you like a dancing clown
And put my words in your mouth

[Verse 2]
I'm going to grind you down
And bludgeon you to paste
Scrub every conviction until it is erased

I'm going to field dress you
And turn you inside out
Blood-soddened and empurpled
By my suspicions and doubts

[Chorus]
I'm getting good at this
I'm decorating all my wretchedness
If feels so good being okay with it
So I can sparkle and rot

And they will shout my praise!
And watch my throat become an open grave
If feels so good pretending I am brave
'Till I forget that I'm not