For You, Farewell (The Break Up)

As time elapsed
I think about the time we had
And where our memories live at
You always seem to be at the roof of my head
And it's no wonder why I'm an addict
When I'm yearning for you
Crazy how that same house is up for escrow
Cause ya heart saying let's go
Having second thoughts when the two of us
Know I'm the best thing for you
But no solid foundation
My mental racing
There's certain things in life I do
That I just can't defend
And yet still I'm empathetic not apologetic
My skinnies bringing stubborness
My ego takes the credit
But to you I'm really sorry
Hope you get the message
Every time we link ya presence bringing me a present
And I never was the one to liken Santa Clause
But the blessing that you bring
Makes me believe in heaven
And somehow happiness misplaced inside abandoned calls
My heart need insurance for the way that we progressing
Cause you say you're finished first but always come for seconds
You're the first thing on my mind but I'm second guessing
So I let God take the wheel when we're driving reckless
Got me obsessive on the way things that used to be
Get you wet like rivers
Your water falls so fluidly
But when I fucked up and you cussed me out so fluently
I know this shit cliche but I'm thinking it ain't you it's me
A lot of times I've done made me some mistakes
But I'm cocky I be thinking what she gon do
Until she say farewell
And I'm like where you going boo
It's many reasons why I want you
But I warned you
I been a dog and ya heart is so mournful
Going through decisions in your head cause you're scornful
Now I'm speeding on 95 racing to the memories
You cook a nigga breakfast after marathon of sexing
Ya parents hated it but you loved it for the record
Our love is verified
And our hearts are blue checked in
But there's changes to be made
Damn I guess that's new perspective
Why the madness
The stuff that we was doing should continue everlasting
Open up your car door
And I put you in the passenger
Tears slowly coming down your face
Ain't driving fast enough
Try to channel mine like an aqueduct
Pull up to the crib
Why the fuck you spazzing bruh
Can't go to the restaurant cause you acting up
You tell me I'm cold
Why I ain't more passionate
You lay on top of me I feel you smiling down
I try to understand you
But ain't on solid ground
We was doing good
Why you PMSing
No one to talk to now you got your homies interjecting
Damn
You ain't learn your lesson
It's a reason why your friends single and you ain't
People never understand the strokes of Picasso
They finally get the picture when he finished paint
The reason why the canvas to our hearts is stained
Took a shot from three like I'm at the Barclay's
Stuck between a rock and a hard place
Like do I mend this shit
Or do I move and keep it pimping
And I know you had a problem with me entertaining women
But I know you know I loved you
And I wish that things were different
And I wanted us a family
Give ya ass new acquisitions
Like a home with the picket fence and plenty of children
Funny how life really change though
Head in the clouds cause nothing was the same yo
Sometimes you just gotta let the pain flow
Before I'm gone, I just wanna tell you