PARANOiD

I’m sorry I feel far away
My mind has not been all in place
I’m tryna find some common ground
But lately I can’t concentrate
I lived my life too fast too long, I know
You wish I just spent more time with you
Occupied by things I just can’t change
I know
I know
But see I’m paranoid
I’ve been losin people closer and I can’t avoid
How I’m never gettin over how it could be us
Could be love I lose
Could be more, could be just like you
I’ve been paranoid
Watchin people gettin reckless and I get annoyed
Knowin I cannot protect us and it
Could be us
Could be love I lose
Could be more, could be just like you
It ain’t been easy to face
Life feel like doin the race
I keep it all outta focus
It feel like I’m movin in space
I’m stayin topside but it’s tougher than usual movin this pace
I couldn’t feel right when I heard my lil cousin took two in the face
Sorry I’m not actin usual
You say it’s been worryin you, I know
But lately it’s all been a crucible
It’s not gettin easier to control
Slow down, I lose the flow
I gotta stay on the move
It doesn’t get easier knowin me hurtin has really been gettin to you
Paranoid
I’ve been losin people closer and I can’t avoid
How I’m never gettin over
How it could be us, could be love I lose
Could be more, could be just like you
I’ve been paranoid
Watchin people gettin reckless and I get annoyed
Knowin I cannot protect us and it could be us
Could be love I lose
Could be more, could be just like you
Thank God that it’s God watchin
I been makin a collage outta every loss I feel like a fraud often
Just knowin it’s families that bought coffins
I worry too much, I write it too much
I’m wonderin why I can’t stop coughin
Remembering comin home to my family, instantly hearin them shots poppin
I’m prayin for peace, deliverance, beats, attention and everything I’m coppin
But how’d I get lucky enough to duck what was up, regrettin I got options?
I’m followin work with nothin but hurt, ignorin it all when I’m not droppin
Still wonder when the shots stoppin
Still wonder if the shots stoppin
Still wonder if the cops really even cops as much as they cause problems
Lay awake hopin God solve em
Pray today that it’s no problems
Day to day, I just solve problems
Day to day, I just solve problems
Day to day, I just solve problems
Pray today I can solve problems
I get paranoid
Can’t avoid
Could be us
Could be love, could be just like you