ENTER LUST
There ain't that much I can't handle
But I don't know how much I can take
I think my teeth are gonna break if she don't look my way
She caught me creeping in the back bar
That's when her eyes met mine
Two steps to the side
And she brushed against my arm
“Boy, I gotta tell you, you've been giving me a fright
Are you looking for a good time or you looking for a fight?
Either way I think I may be able to oblige
Why don't you buy me a drink and take me home tonight?”
Hands through her hair like solid gold
Where they see flesh I just see bone
And I said
“Girl, I'm the last onе in the world you want with you when you're alonе”
Kick in the door
“Honey bunny what you waiting for?
Take me, touch me, hold me, love me
Right here on the floor”
She's a wolf without teeth, silly black sheep, nothing special or unique about a bleating piece of meat!
I cut the bitch's nose off
Just to spite her fucking face
Said “No one's gonna love ya babe, except for me!”
I'm so weary from withholding this fury in my bones
I'm foaming at the mouth
I'm blacking out
All I can see is red!
Tell me that I'm dreaming
Say she's only sleeping
I close my eyes and count to five
And oh my god she's dead
Gotta lose the body but I don't know where to start
So I hung it on a hanger in the closet in the dark
And she said
“You can have it”
What?
“I don't need it”
Shut up!
“I would've given it up anyway”
Oh god
Four walls, three days, two hearts, one mistake
Face down in a puddle of hate singing
“Amazing Grace, how sweet the sound
That saved a wretch like me
I once was lost but now I am found
Was blind but now I see”
I told the judge i didn't do it
And the police couldn't prove it
So they had to let me back out on the street
Oh yeah!
My nerves are fried and shot to shit
I really should just give up but I just can't quit
It's like pulling teeth tryna walk this tall
Banging my head against the wall
All in an effort to endeavor for some clever way to say
“Same shit baby, just a different day”
Fuckin' A!
Thus I was sick in my heart
With bitter intensity
Lust turned to habit
Habit then became necessity
Necessity gave way to Greed
The spoiled bitch of Envy
Envy boiled into Wrath
Which made an enemy of everything
Tossing and turning in all my chains
In hopes that one day they'd break
“Which their superior will receives from above, the motions and contradictions of their sensuality which they suffer from below are so importunate and violent on each side that the reason between them both is often brought into extreme straights and perplexities. Wherefore let none think to obtain this victory who is not prepared and resolved to support patiently all such pains and crosses.”
Could this be the peace I've always wanted
From the demon who's been haunting me
Since I first heard the voices speak out from underneath?
Delia, my darling
My souls simply starving I'm wasting away
Here on the other side of sane
In the underverse, my love, nothing's quite the same
But I still hear your voice
And I hold to your name
All these songs that we sing I cling to keeping me brave
While I wait for your hand in mine
Rescuer!
The more you live to do what pleases you
The less you'll find you're pleased in the things you do
These shattered bones
And this broken heart
These old cold fingers on this worn out guitar
Well it's there in a place where prayer
Tarried with tear and turned to melody
It buried me, it carried me
I still find solace in all of this pain
In the blood on the wall where I first learned to write my name
Would it still be naive to believe I can be saved?
Rescuer!