One In The Chamber (Jan 11th)

[Verse]
9 under my mattress
I crumble to ashes
Face torn up with scratches
My shadow is casted
Ripped apart my room
Life always resumes
And I'm sick of it
Crying, wishing for an early doom
I'm past my last straw
I'm consumed by my flaws
I suffer from withdrawals
From the drugs and from a broad
Gun in my hand, I put one in the chamber
Sick of this shit, I cannot ever change her
Losing myself and I feel like a stranger
Brushing the barrel against my retainer

[Bridge]
Mom walks in
My patience is thin
She starts freaking out
Where do I begin?

[Verse]
Tell her bout crack
Tell her bout Shannon
Tell her my thoughts as wеll as all that I'm planning
Hate I'm the third wheel and always abandoned
Hidе it behind all my smiles and laughing
Crying a river
I fucked up my liver
Don't set the bar high, I can't ever deliver
Feelings turn bitter
I won't eat my dinner
One more minute, would've pulled the trigger
My hands start to quiver and I get the shivers
They took the gun, but I still got the scissors, use it if I need to, but it won't be quicker
Hate that bitch, I won't ever forgive her
At least my parents know there's an issue
Got them both crying, they pulling out tissues
Nothing remains of their joy-filled kid who couldn't care less, now my gut is what I stick to