You said i looked like death

Last time i laid awake
I thought about my ever lasting anxiety
Tonight
Tonight it was different
The blackness of death surrounded my mind
What if dying is like closing your eyes
And never waking up
What if after you die you just cease to exist
Like your soul and inner consciousness
Just stops

Please just tell me
It doesn’t have to end here
Cause i wanna live a little longer
Please just love me while i’m here

What if you fall asleep on a late night
And you have to watch everyone that cared
Surround your dead body
And watch as everyone accepts
The fact you’re gone
Never to be see again
Unless it’s in their memories
What if death is like ecstasy
In the moment entire body fills with relief
As it collapses to the ground
It kept me up late sometimes
Because i don’t know what death is like
And i don’t know if i’m scared
Or it’s just bothering me

Last time we talked you said i looked like death
You asked if i was sleeping
I told you no
I told you hadn’t
Cause i don’t know how to control it
My clock is off
And the lights are dimmed down