Locked Away

I keep so much locked away
Never been the type to open up anyways
I keep so much locked away

I keep so much locked away
My own family don’t even know my pain
I talked to my Mom today
She asked me if I was okay

I guess I’m lying again
Because I told her I was doing great
Yeah, she wants to see her son happy
So I put a fake smile on my face

Only if you knew my mental place
I wish you could live forever and never age
On second thought my Dad is back to his ways
I’m glad me and him are back on the same page

My niece is growing everyday
She knows her ABC’s
God damn that’s the cutest shit I’ve ever seen
If I’m being honest I might not have my own seed

I can’t picture myself raising a mini me
Only time will tell
Just know your daddy got some bars
And he’s not in jail

He’s a real man because he never his hands on a female
I know I got responsibilities
At the same time living this life is killing me
I know I got responsibilities
At the same time living this life is killing me

I keep so much locked away
Never been the type to talk about my pain
So I keep locked away
So I keep locked away
So I keep locked away

I came from a broken home just like you
Why you think I’m hesitant when it comes to wifing you
I won’t be that person to put a knife in you
I know when you look at me you see my wounds

A reflection of what I’ve been through
I chose to love myself instead of loving you
You can call me selfish all you want
Bottle up my feelings that’s why I never talk

Trust me I’ve seen some things you don’t wanna see
I’ve been at some places you don’t wanna be
My closest friends became my enemies
It’s all good because I'm better off lonely

Spending time inside my head
I should do some spring cleaning like Malcom said
It’s time for me to move on
It’s time for me to put my demons to rest

Focus on myself
Focus on being at my best
I’m a energy giver
You an energy drainer

You see we not the same
Dealing with some, but I take it day by day
It’s gon be okay if momma said it’s gon be okay
I’ve been on my own for so long
Let me find myself so I can see right from wrong

Locked away in my room when I wrote this song
Express myself on paper
I’ll apply some pressure, but baby I won’t chase you
Baby I wont chase you

I keep so much locked away
Never been the type to talk about my pain
So I keep it locked away
So I keep it locked away
So I keep it locked away