Healing Process

Yeah, I've been hurting for some time
I just don't really talk about it
You see I've been hurting for some time
I just don't really talk about it

I've been hurting for some time
I just don't really talk about it
I had some people stab me in my back
But I'm still making things happen

Its all about me
Wasted time, wasted energy
I give that back to me
I needed time, I needed space

So I left the city
I wasn't strong enough to talk about shit that was fucking with me
I know I'm not okay
The hardest part of my day is putting a smile on my face

But I still do
Got too much pride to talk about the shit that I'm going through
I don't know why I think I'm bullet proof
Act like shit don't hurt, but it really do

You see I'm working on loving you
But I gotta love myself first
Because if I don't then shit just won't work
I've been stabbed in the back, I've been kicked in the dirt

It's all good because I know that's the devils work, yeah

I've been going through it
From the outside looking in I'm not perfect
I'm still hurting, I'm still healing
Everyday I'm tryna be the best me that I could be, yeah

Im tryna keep my head up
Life gets hard and some times I get fed up
Right now I'm in the struggle looking for a blessing
It's me that God's really testing

It's time for me to let go
It's time for some self reflection
Let me patch up my wounds
Let me disregard my negative attitude

I told you If I'm back then I'm coming back brand new
Some times I don't know how to handle this thing we call life
Feel like I'm not good enough and I got too much pride
Nobody knows how I feel inside so I talk to this mic

And I don't wanna be the type to pop a pill so I could feel right
That feeling is only temporary
Take some shit that could kill me
And its kinda scary

Drowning myself in this liquor
The pain is blinding me from seeing the bigger picture
I don't wanna go down that route
I wanna show the world what I'm really about

And just like you I've been through so much
Some days I don't wanna wake up
Some days I think about my past breakups
Some times I miss my old friends

I wish them the best, but I'm just better off without them
I gotta watch who I surround myself with
Not everyone wants to see you win
I gotta stay focused, I gotta stay in my element

I gotta watch who I surround myself with
Not everyone wants to see you win
I gotta stay focused, I gotta stay in my element yeah

Anxiety and depression
I've been dealing with so much
Some days I don't feel like myself
It's not what you go through, but its how you go through it yeah

I pray that everyone finds themselves
And when you find yourself I pray that you love yourself
I pray that everyone finds themselves
And when you find yourself I pray that you love yourself

When you find yourself I pray that you love yourself