Bone Dry

Bone dry and I
Never had a quote unquote slip
In fact the last time that I did
Was back in 1986
You were just a kid

Happy to be here, happy to be sober
c little bit older and a lot less wise

Is there some illumination
Something I can memorize?
I can't hear your conversations
cnd I'm running out of tries

Fake numbers, all red again today
It's the money that's broken

Medication helped but the terror stayed
What if everything I try turns out the same way?
cnyway, happy to be here, happy to be sober
c little bit older and a lot less wise

I'm beat, sick of my epiphanies
I don't want to be a hero, hope they gave me the placebo
I'm having a bitch of a time and I richly deserve it

Is there some illumination
Something I can memorize?
I can't hear your conversations
cnd I'm running out of tries

Meditation helped but the terror stayed
What if everything I try turns out the same way?
cnyway, happy to be here, happy to be sober
c little bit older and a lot less wise