Silver Lining

I'm afraid that I've become everything that I've said I'm not. I've lost myself inside my head. The person that I am today is not the one that I used to be. What have I what have I become? I'm tired of living my life in vain and feeling worthless and empty. I'm tired of living my life in fear of falling and failing. Who am I? Why have I become everything I've said I'm not? Searching for a silver lining that will never be found, and trying to find solace in my surroundings in hoping of being content. I've been treading down the same path for many years. I'm going nowhere, I refuse to continue on living like this. And I just want to understand if there's a reason that I'm here. I'm only human. So perfectly imperfect. I hold my future in the palm of my hands. I'll be my own light. I'll be my own light