Thoughts in My Head

I made this project just to tell em' how I feel
I lost a couple friends cause I always kept it real
They tryna eat from the plate but they ain't pay the bill
I let my guard down now I feel like Bradley Beal
Tryna change the world but I gotta change myself
That's word to Biggie Smalls I been working on myself
Contemplating therapy for my mental health
Its always recommended but will it really help
I been working on my accomplishments until I feel accomplished
Searching for astonishment until I get astonished
Learning about consequences until I get conscious
Fighting off these demons and these evil ass monsters
So much shit up on my mind I don't know how it fit
So worried bout my mom they don't know how it get
Arthritis in her back she still working and shit
I'm all about my family so you know how it get
I'm all about my family so you know how it get
I'm all about my family so you know how it get
I'm tryna gain clarity instead I get distortion
Accepting all my problems is really what's important
Maybe I'm just tripping and blowing it outta proportion
But I'm how suppose to feel knowing my sister got an abortion
When I found out man it hurt my soul
I got sick to my stomach man it really took a toll
I had them talks with em but its getting out of control
Getting em out the hood is my number one goal
They don't understand cause shit is so stagnant
You hang around bad then you become a magnet
Your friends start to leave then here comes the sadness
If they really cared they wouldn't condone bad shit