LONELY

Hate my channel
You hate my music
You want attention
You get it
I don't know how you do it
I go through it
It's just a joke
It's just a joke
To you it may be
But to me it just gets me low
Hey god
Why am I the one that people laugh at?
The one known as trash, the one in the back, the outcast?
I got no real friends
Just fake ones
Respect? They gave none
"Make friends"
I made some
They still call me dumb
They still take my dreams
Take 'em and crush 'em
Right in front of me
Calling me ugly
Saying I'm nothing
God am I something?
Running after something I'm not becoming
I guess the worlds against me
I got a soul, not empty
Hate on me? Tempting
When is it ending?
Depressing
When everyone has left me
My thoughts ascending
What tricks will my brain start blending?
So I start defending
Anything they haven't found
Anything they'll end up calling out
No, wow
These thoughts are getting loud
Who am I tryna make proud?
I've already let myself down
I can't impress them now
I'm lost and I can't stick around
Empty messages
You care, it ain't evident
I think it's time I start ending it
You don't hit me up on my phone
I feel so alone
Your egos are grown
You ain't no friends, you some foes
The things you say are so cold
I don't forgive any lie you told
You ain't ever had my back
Only got interested when I talked cash
Now I'm mad, at the fact
You say all my projects made are trash
How you gonna bring me down like that?
They say I shouldn't be sad, I'm great where I'm at
Tell me why I'm lonely
Tell me why I got no homies
Tell me why nobody phones me
Tell me why it feels like I'm the only
Person that could ever know me
Feels like everything around me crashin' slowly
Being alone for so long, isn't cozy
We ain't talking in the halls
You ain't giving any calls
I confront you, somehow it's my fault
I'm making lifetime goals, you don't care at all
You don't catch me when I fall
When we talk, you just stall
Trust, when? Yeah, I don't recall
I would never do the things you did to me to somebody else
No help
Oh well
Lock myself in my mind, like a cell
I hope someday you know how I felt
Alone, no one can tell
It feels like hell (hell, hell)
How are you feeling today?
What's going on today?
What are you doing tomorrow?
Are you okay?
No, I'm not feeling great
Whys that? Whys that?
Well, these are questions that they never ask
They leave me in the past
Lately I just feel so lonely
Lonely