Childish

I think I'm letting you down
I think you know what this is
I've been gasping for air
But I'm trying my best

And I know I said that I'd get better
I always had the best intentions
But now I'm becoming more insufferable

I'm becoming an outlaw
I was hiding at the coffee shop
I know it's childish
But I'm so helpless
I'm running up at midnight
I'm loosening my grip on life
And I know it's childish
Called it enlightened

I think I'm going to bed
I know its only nine
But I feel like a kid
And I don't wanna cry

And I've tried to find another way
I've cut my hair and passed the blame but
Now I've become more insufferable

I'm becoming an outlaw
I was hiding at the coffee shop
I know it's childish
But I'm so helpless
I'm running up at midnight
I'm loosening my grip on life
And I know it's childish
Called it enlightened

Throw me a ball and I'll throw it right back
I'm desperate for you to undo what went bad
I'll run to New York but I know it never lasts
I'll dig up the money I'll starve if I must
I'll get a job somewhere where no one gets hurt
I'll make up excuses I'll say I didn't run

Throw me a ball and I'll throw it right back
(I'm becoming an outlaw)
I'm desperate for you to undo what went bad
(I was hiding at the coffee shop)
I'll run to New York but I know it never lasts
(I know it's childish but I'm so helpless)
I'll dig up the money I'll starve if I must
(I'm running up at midnight)
I'll get a job somewhere where no one gets hurt
(I'm loosening my grip on life and I know it's childish)
I'll make up excuses I'll say I didn't run
(Called it enlightened)