Am I Too Old

I can't count all the times
I tried to reach, but fell apart
Stood proudly, with nothing to boost
Well, here's a vicious guess
The world is against me
Am I now too old
Too frail to prevail
Hallucinating impossible dreams
Am I delusional
They say
It takes very small small steps
To get over myself
And stop doubting, ranting
Should I keep on trying
If I'm only moving backward
In this dark evil and black world
My heart rate rising
I feel the heat and another beat
Should I throw it all away, away
My weary soul is crying out, don't fade away and never be afraid
I strive for fate to go my way, please go my way
Look at all the days I lost
The fun I missed 'Cause was too scared to risk
Am I now too old
Too weak to live my dream
Hallucinating impossible dreams
Am I delusional
They say
It takes very small small steps
To get over myself
And stop doubting, ranting
Should I keep on trying
If I'm only moving backward
In this dark evil and black world
My heart rate rising
I feel the heat and another beat
Should I throw it all away, away
My weary soul is crying out, don't fade away and never be afraid
I strive for fate to go my way, please go my way
Just let me breathe
Should strive for fate
To go my way, my way
But I'm nearing the deadline too soon, too soon