Nostalgia Nausea

Does it make you feel safe, knowing you can come home?
When you’re leaving behind everything that you’ve known?
All the memories that you can never forget
Will they haunt your dreams with the fear of regret?

Does it make you feel sick, knowing you’re all alone?
Do you tremble and shake, with a chill in your bones?
Are you losing the will to get up and press on?
Now that everything’s lost and everyone’s gone?

All i’ve ever wanted, all that i desired, laid down at my feet
I took my future into my hands, following my own plans, thinking i was free
(self-made captivity)
Now i lay my weary head down on the dirty ground, no sign of shelter
(wandering in a desert)
Once i gorged on bread and wine, now i long to eat like swine, dying of hunger
(fill my stomach with dirt)
My tongue’s as dry as cotton, and i’ve almost forgotten what it’s like to really live
(taste of living water)
Is it too late to return, cross the bridges that i’ve burned, to the one who can forgive
(the arms of my father)

I remember everything
Reminiscence sickening
Nostalgia nausea