Not That Easy

I've written a list of goals
But it’s only a question of finding the time
'Cause my mind shuts down at certain points
When I get ahead I fall two steps behind

I want to be more positive
But some days I want to hide

I want to be more positive
But some days I want to hide

I wanna set fire to everything I've done
I wanna rewire my brain, my mind is numb
I wanna open up to everyone
But it’s just not that easy

The pain moves behind my eyes
Across the top of my head
Sometimes I'm optimistic
But some days I want to hide
I just want to hide

I wanna set fire to everything I've done
I wanna rewire my brain, my mind is numb
I wanna open up to everyone
But it's just not that easy

Standing stranded in the mist
On a callous autumn day
Memories that sear
Sleeping with ghosts, I long to let loose
Slowly we float back up through the noose
We hold our heads up

I want to be more positive
But some days I want to hide

I want to be more positive
But some days I want to hide

I want to be more positive
But some days I want to hide

I want to be more positive
But some days I want to hide