the aftermath (icu)

I'm happy cause the sirens ring
And my heart can't sing
I needed amphetamines
Took me to the smallest bed in the whole room
Living in ICU but you couldn't see
My heart is not a hospital
For damaged souls
I thought it was obvious
I've been led to believe
You were a part of me
Our neon lights aren't so glorious
If ecstasy means flying
I'd rather be soaring than lying down
My body's been trying
Keeping up with x-rays til I'm found
Chemically bonded
To the idea of finding love
But this time you saw right through my bones
You're like a drug to me
I'm glad I'm finding my way out
Of the numbing drought
That left me distorted
I haven't touched a fork in days
I'm starving babe I try to ignore it
They say I'm too far gone
That I'm just not strong enough for society
And I've tried therapy, still gets hard to breathe
Medical emergencies
I see you but you don't
I see you but you won't help me
If ecstasy means flying
I'd rather be soaring than lying down
My body's been trying
Keeping up with x-rays til I'm found
Chemically bonded
To the idea of finding love
But this time you saw right through my bones
You're like a drug to me