Oxymoronic

I feel myself wither
When stresses get bigger
I'd rather be dead then to slither for slivers of silver
From figures who have enough figures
To give a small portion and save me from winter
Or get me some dinner
Just fuck I need something
Been sitting for weeks but I'm mentally running in circles
These hurdles I can't keep on jumping
I need shit to do more then smoking and humping
And bumping this music they think I'm a sinner
Go figure, I figured we're past pointing fingers like arrows from quivers
I quiver when thoughts of the future come hither
I'm not like my peers, and though it appears I'm good with this rapping
I'm tangled with fear and i can't make it happen
I'm hauling on weed cuz it helps me to tap out and honestly i don't really ever wanna tap back in

Uh uh I'm back in

My knuckles red like in sonic
Thirsty but don't fuck with tonic
You're not a super just comic
I'm feeling oxymoronic
I'm outta my head least I'm honest
Anxiety plagued like bubonic
Puffing on that green bitch it's chronic
I'm feeling-
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Why the hell am I feeling so lost
My holy mantle been broke into shards
I only got about one hit left
Somebody please send my family regards
The ones that I like at least
When I'm up on the mic I'm a fucking beast
I'm as white as the chalk 'round a murder scene
That explain why I'm rockin' this burgundy
Nobody hurtin' me
Heard to me
I'll lie to you with a certainty
Make you believe there's a dream that is worth living for
I adore your Naiveness and sure
I don't know what is next, if it's peace, if it's war
But either way we're going out with a bang
So buckle up before you're ripped from the floor
Are they gonna see a legacy when you hang
I'm free from living it's no longer a chore