Moral Code

And it's a lifestyle
That we live out
And we do not talk about
Cuz we are not living proud
See my mother and my father
And I know what's going down
But quiet it is kept
From the rest of the world
Because I do accept
No pity or no sympathy
Just make the world remember me
Though promises I met
This childhood turned me viciously
And I'm out for respect
Since simply it's empathy
That children do neglect
And now upset
Unable to repress the things I'm willing to forget
I cannot look pass the things I'm wishing to forgive
And so I live
With pent up anger
Constant danger
Any second I may slip,
Into a place foreign
That I visit when I trip
So bottle up I got enough
I struggle not to sip
Not Hennessy but vengeance see
Is sweeter to the lip
And so I dip off
In silence I can see all
Through my tears
I watch as they fall
Then laugh as I have to
Cuz if I don't I may ball
Out my eyes
Over lies
And commitments that they broke
I stay low and label
Then I forgive em once more
My family implant in me a moral code

Do as I say not as I do
Till today I hold true
But tell my children
I'll do better for you
And though times were different
Needed better from you
I plan a future
And I'm kinda confused
If you love somebody
How do u put em through
What you put me through
You said do as I say not as I do
Till today I hold true
But tell my children
I'll do better for you
And though times were different
Needed better from you
I plan a future
And I'm kinda confused
If you love somebody
How do u put em through
What you put me through

And now in this society
I try and try and try to see
Someone who takes sobriety
And holds it to the light for free
Cuz suicidal tendencies
Say you don't value life to me
Not a habit not an addict
I just want to have it
It's not a drug just want a buzz
And you say you living happily
That's crap to me cuz actually
You are someone that's sad to be
Oh I know you had to cope
You disrespectful bag of bones
It's people that done been through
Things that you will never equal
And in the morning thanking God
Cuz yesterday done had its sequel
You cannot be feeble
Minded enough
That either of us
Would ever buy that it was
So much going on
That you had to try drugs
So save it for em
That let you play dumb
I can't afford it
It hurt me too much
See
I learned right and wrong
Before me writing songs
Where you can ride along
And even on my own
I knew that I was being strong
Too many tears I cried in life
I knew I had to wipe my eyes
And sacrifice til I survive
And I can finally live my life
How I want to
Cuz quitings what I won't do
No matter what I go through
It's no truth in coping
In open space and mind you
Know who you really are
But you will never go that far
Faded and jaded
Mortal man created
To be basic and face it
You faceless now say it

Do as I say not as I do
Till today I hold true
But tell my children
I'll do better for you
And though times were different
Needed better from you
I plan a future
And I'm kinda confused
If you love somebody
How do u put em through
What you put me through