Get High

Like a movie
going on in my head
It's not even real
but I still feel my anxiety grow
The little shakes in between my bones

Looking for ways
that I could numb the pain
I know that you get me
Before you reject me
realize I'm falling out of control

I always gotta fill my space
I always gotta fill the silence
and step by step
I'm getting further away from truth
Don't wanna feel it in my brain
Sometimes I gotta make it violent

and step by step
I'm fading away, I'm fading away

Cause I'd rather die
than spend another minute
in my head
with the things I'm feeling
I find it easier
to get high and forget it
And I feel it crawling
underneath my skin
I'm stuck in a hole
and it's closing in
It's so much easier
to get high and forget it
So I'll get high and forget it

Sometimes I get lost mid-conversation
A subtle reminder
and I'm off in my Hollywood production again
What did you say?
I wasn't listening
I'm looking right at you
but I'm just not here
And nobody likes me
It's my insecurity
that pushes them away again

Cause I'd rather die
than spend another minute
in my head
with the things I'm feeling
I find it easier
to get high and forget it
And I feel it crawling
underneath my skin
I'm stuck in a hole
and it's closing in
It's so much easier
to get high and forget it
So I'll get high and forget it

I steal I cheat and lie
Whatever it takes me to get high
It controls my body
soul and mind
I do things I'd never do
A few hits to get me through
Is there something you can do?

I always gotta fill my space
I always gotta fill the silence
Don't wanna feel it in my brain
Just get the hell away from me
I gotta make it violent
Yeaaaaaaaaah
I gotta get high
And I feel it crawling
underneath my skin
I'm stuck in a hole
and it's closing in
It's so much easier
to get high and forget it
So I'll get high and forget it