It Ends With a Fall

Wish I could remember
Why it mattered to me.
It doesn't matter to me.
It doesn't matter to me
Anymore.
Now that you're
Feeling fine,
I'll admit that though

I know it's coming down,
And see it shattering me
It doesn't matter to me,
And I'm not sadder for
Seeing it come.
I'm not going to run.
I will just come
When I am called.

You want to cut me off
Because I took too much,
But don't leave me alone
Take off your scarves,
Your winter coat.
The night's too cold.

When we met I should have said
You're like a sister to me,
How all that kiss her just seem
Like puny suitors I can see through,
How none will do,
No not for you,
How it might as well just be us two.

And when I pulled you by the jacket
From the clattering street,
You started flattering me,
You started saying I was so strong.
String me along,
But I can't become
All that I'm called.

And I can't claim to know
What makes love die or grow,
But I can still take control
And so refuse to just go home,
Back down the hall.

And as I crawl,
As finally all
The false confetti blooms
Up in this attic room,
I'm going make my stand.
I want to see both of your hands
Put down the phone.

I won't let you go,
Although
The moment stole
My self-control
From us all
And now it can only end
End with a fall.