Someone Else Entirely

[Verse 1]
I'm sorry that I struggle to tell the truth
I just wish that you could see it
But I could fall apart
If I find out what is breaking me
I don't even want to think
About what could happen to you

[Hook]
One day I'll swallow my pride
Look in the mirror and be fine
I'll see myself looking back
For the first time
One day I'll swallow my pride
Look in the mirror and be fine
I'll see myself looking back
For the first time

[Verse 2]
Nobody I meet will ever need me
Know I shouldn't eat, but filled with gluttony
Exaggerating my past, fill in the gaps
With holey stories
Tell my friends I'm lazy while I still do nothing
If I'm self aware they might leave me alone
Go to school, go home, hate myself and then do it tomorrow
If I try not to eat, close every door within 10 feet and
Block all my friends, run every command, tell them I'll- they'll
They'll have no choice but to give me attention
Coz that's all I want, I don't want help
I want people to listen to me, pay more attention to me
(Please don't leave me, I promise I'm trying my best)
I'll look how I want, not want to disappear when I see my reflection and
I'll act how I want, I'll be loved by everyone and I'll
(Please don't leave me, I promise I'm trying my best)
I'll make my parents proud and stop feeling like such a huge burden and
I'll stop lying to myself and I'll accept that it's not good to feel like this
(Please don't leave me, I promise I'm trying my best)
I won't throw my life away and I'll live up to my old expectations and
I'll want to see my family when I grow up and
(Please don't leave me, I promise I'm trying my best)
I'll stop being inhuman and finally find salvation and I'll
I'll be someone else, so that I can finally be myself again
(Please don't leave me, I promise I'm trying my best)