An Unexpected Variable

Pendulum swinging I'm steady watching his daughter grow
So right now I gotta get it before the window close
Just wanna chase it now cause I know I could take the throne
And bring the team cause I ain't tryna chase alone
If Burn city's the concrete, then I'm the rose
Been here forever yet I still be keeping on my toes
Can't understand why anybody wants to play the foe
Willem Defoe, yeah they know me to play the villain role
I'm like the star of this show just call me Penny Proud
I finally know I got my family feeling plenty proud
My father told me "rip it up" I couldn't let him down
I'm looking out for they faces I see em in the crowd
My brain is crowded, it's overflowing with petty thoughts
Like how I'm trying to cross bridges that plenty cross
I'm tryna play it safe and minimising any loss
But how I'm tryna act like a boss when I ain't cover cost?
I'm tryna help you see the truth, feel like I'm Morpheus
This ain't the way it's sposed' to be I know there's more than this
Blue pill, red pill, Xanny or Percocet?
You pick your poison and tell me if it was worth it yet
Shout out to Bwizzy he really the one that put me on
In math class I asked if I could do a song
I did a Pound Cake Remix and I put it down
He was the first one telling me I can make it now
And fast forward I still love to rewind that
But now I'm tryna be what Chance is to Chiraq
Be like Cole, and put the 'Ville up on the ma
But that requires the city I love to have my back
My biggest fear is that I never make it
And when I'm 30 I'll reflect on all the years I've wasted
Or even worse I get close enough to glory to taste it
And watch another take the game where I wanted to take it
Yeah
I'm still questioning the path that I've chosen to take
Still uncertain bout relationships I've had to make
Cause nowadays you're like who's real and who is fake?
And cutting people off is becoming a piece of cake
I'm scared of snakes in the grass, I know they talking wreckless
That's when I look at my necklace and that shit don't effect us
Cause her initials always seem to put it in perspective
No matter what imma always remember what respect is
I'm in the car praying bismillah
Cause I even doubted myself, how'd I get this far?
My homie Hisham praying for me, inshallah
He praying that I ain't never lose myself in the stars
This is my Adele 19
I'm tired of being the reason we can't have nice things
And one thing I'll tell anyone is chase your dreams
Cause in reality it might be closer than what it seems for real