Lay My Head

I been having nightmares about the days I’ve shared
When I close my eyes where I lay my head
And I don’t know when it’s coming so that I’m prepared
And I know that I’ll be lying to say that I’m not scared yet
Spending nights out in the town, this the life that I live
And I know they trying to copy want to do what I did
Feel like I deserve a lot for all the shit that I give
If I had to lose it all to get it back then I will
I been having complications trying to say how I feel
So I’m steady getting high to try to numb how I feel
If they try to take us out and GOD forbid, then I’ll kill
Don’t know why they hate the fact I’ll never front cause I’m real
Really feel like that’s the reason I done lost a lot of friends
Everybody want to know me but I know the way it ends
I’m just out here living life and ima take it how it is
Used to care bout people feelings ima tell it how it is
I was down they didn’t care and now I see that’s how it goes
I been focused on myself these niggas fussing over hoes
Money running through my mind I ran to get it now I’m gone
I see everything is fake now I just wanna be alone
I been having nightmares about the days I’ve shared
When I close my eyes where I lay my head
And I don’t know when it’s coming so that I’m prepared
And I know that I’ll be lying to say that I’m not scared yet
I been wasting my time man it’s been a long year
And I know one day it’s coming so I’m showing no fear
I’m just hoping that straight for days that I’m not there
Just remember all the times and how much that I cared
They didn’t go behind my back they stabbed the knife in my side
But they’ll never knock me down a real nigga gone rise
I told myself the shit was coming so it’s really no surprise
Gotta thank GOD that it’s over no believing more lies yeah