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Yeah
Man, I don't even want to do this song
Okay
Let's go
Ever since the Big Bang...
I've been cooking in the Universe's belly
Perfection took 13.8 billion years, but now I'm ready
4.5 billion years until the 3rd planet was birth
About 2 million years until the first humans roamed Earth
Then on a smaller time scale of 2 millenniums
Developed the greatest lyrical mind of all craniums
A little Spanish lady by the name of Rosalina
Gave birth to the kid who could instantly freeze Aquafina
Now the chains are coming off and I'm going off in this bitch
I got you wishing that my mother had a fucking miscarriage
And sometimes I wish the same and I wish that I could vanish
Cause everything I've been through is more than I can fucking manage
So I contemplated suicide, couldn't say my last good-bye
Lucky for me I wanted life by the throat, necktie
I used to be so lost as a little kid
Lived my whole childhood without a mom and I hated it
I was off in a corner cause I used to be so embarrassed
Jealous of the other kids that had both of their parents
Thinking to myself that I'm already different enough
Dad struggling to make money made everything tough
All I ever wanted was the happiness that you had
But I was a trouble kid who couldn't connect with his dad
No guidance, no nothing, just me doing what I wanted to
Looking back, I know my dad did the best that he could do
I fucking hate that it took me so long to realize
Got me holding back tears running down my eyes
Cause that man deserves the world and so much more
Got me questioning why I did all that stupid shit for
Like acting out and doing stupid shit that I would regret
Was such a better outcome for me, a much safer bet
Like doing drugs and breaking the law was just so damn cool
To be part of a crew and get a false approval from you
Man, fuck that, I don't give a fuck that's just not who I am
I'm twice the XY you'll ever be, mailman
Forget my insecurities and every fucking flaw
And every moment of my life that brought me down and made me crawl
From being completely and utterly damanged
To losing the love of my life, well ain't that a major bitch
If you don't have a purpose or a reason in my life
I'll cut you off easily with no return in sight
And that's the reason why I gotta keep my circle small
Removing the people that bring me down cause I ain't tryna fall
I'm tryna be the best version of me that I can be
So what's a few bad years to my enternity
So what's good without bad and bad without the good
Cause one without the other simply can't be understood
Meaning my future must have amazing possiblities
I guess my only sin is Self Inflicted Negativity
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