Painted Blue

I read my horoscope
And abandoned all my hope
This was all a joke, we thought you knew
Pull heavy blankets over my head
And make the bed a swimming pool
Then tie some cinder blocks around my ankles
And apply the labels of all my fears
My worst intentions, the selfish engines
That drive the pistons and turn the gears

And light a fire and burn away
All the efforts of my glory days
As my reflection, painted blue
Says: I will always be a part of you

I wrote my number down and then got turned around
I parked the car but then forgot my place
I wandered the desert, despite my efforts
Wound up like Moses at the gates

So light a fire and burn away
All the efforts of my glory days
As my reflection, painted blue
Says: I will always be a part of you

I wanted desperately something I couldn’t see
A blinding light always just out of reach
The ancient specter, the blind director
The sirens on the beach

That light a fire and burn away
All the effort of my glory days
As my reflection, painted blue
Says: I will always be a part of you

So heaven help me if I stay
Heaven help me if I go away
'Cause I’ve forgotten how to pray, but heaven help me anyway