something about rain

I owe
So many apologies
Mostly to myself
For being hard on me
I grow
Where darkness seem to shine
I lived in perfect lies
Don't look me in my eyes and judge me now
Scared of the things that you see in me now
Felt so assured til' I felt me drown
I tortured my soul just to numb me down
I need you to care for me, carefully
Especially when I don't wanna care for me
Never wanna see you fall
And if you need me, I'll be just one call
Cause you're cherished
You tell me you need me
Then after you leave me
And I can't even blame you
Cause I would do the same too
My actions are spoken
I take you for granted
So how can I blame you?
I'm trying to be the very best of me
It's hard to even try when you're incomplete
I pray that the feeling'll be obsolete
Cause all I ever wanted was to find my peace, oh
I need you to care for me, carefully
Especially when I don't wanna care for me
Never wanna see you fall
So if you need me, I'll be just one call
Cause you're cherished
It's safe to say it's destined, it was written I'd kill records
I reckon you recognize the presence of real niggas
Living a livid image
Fuck her like I won't finish, Novacane
I'm so ill, if I step outside, bet I burn in rain
Swim in flames, die again
Repeat like it's more to gain
If I reign, hurricane
Then disappear like David Blaine
Fuck the fame I prefer low key and wealthy
I'm influenced by niggas that been through it like me
What it's like to be me
You couldn't walk in my shoes
I had no one around to show me how to be true
Or even better, to stand up for yourself, and be you
Fuck out my way dawg, it's overdue for you to pay dues
For niggas hating on me, I question why would you do?
All my life I looked to the sky pleading for God to take me far from the blues
Dark beginnings
If you knew how much I lost you'd be okay with me winning