Davin's Song

Hey buddy
I'm not sure if you can hear me, but this one's for you

Where do I start
It's like a thousand pounds weigh on my heart
I can't describe how it feels it gets dark
When I think about your absence it leaves a mark
And it's bloody too
Ain't time to scar its an open wound
It's a feeling that I can't get through
I didn't even get to introduce myself to you

All we got is an ultrasound
That's all we've got to pretend you're around
Sometimes I think about how could have sound
Would you rap like me annoy and be loud
I can guess about how you might've done
Maybe been good at anything you touch
Maybe you'd ball like like Ethan and play the guitar
Or have an imagination like Nadine and write all it down
I wonder
Maybe you'd get dad's honesty in all its thunder
And hold us up and never go under
If you were like him you'd be blessed
To beat stress with all your wisdom
And man I wish you could've met mom
She's the strongest person alive and will admit when she's wrong
Which isn't often she could soften any thing and disarm
And she'd fight for you and die if there was threat of harm
You know you've got a little sister and lemme tell you She's perfect
She gets an awful Lotta attention but man she deserves it
I know you'd join the rest of us in being all protective
And that you'd never stop and never would hold back affection
I know you'd be your own person but you're part of us
You were the beginning of a chapter but not just the start
Also the end I want you to know I would've been your friend
And I would've fought anything on earth to protect you to the bitter end
But I know you don't need that anymore
You've got someone way more powerful for sure
I study Bible but already you know so much more
Than I ever could cuz you're face to face with your Creator
Man you've reached the shore
When I heard the news I told God to take me instead
Cuz I knew you're more valuable alive than I am dead
But the more I thought about it you escaped this mess
You escaped this world and left behind its dread
So your heart remains unbroken
All those hateful words you'd hear remain unspoken
Every single thought you have will remain unburdened
And when you try to rest your head you'll won't be woken
See when I think about all that I wouldn't trade
Cuz you've replaced a life of struggle with one that never fades
You'll never be betrayed you'll never have to be afraid
You'll never have to deal with the facades and everyone's charades
I'm depressed that you had to miss the better things
I could've helped you learn to ride a bike and taught you how to sing
We could've stayed up all night watching lord of the rings
And playing pretend with all your friends with makeshift swords and dragon wings
And even though I never got to do that with you here
Maybe we could do it eventually when I get up there
When I too leave behind the fear meet you in the air
I know that's coming one day but right now it's hard to bear
I hear people say they wanna talk to Paul and Peter in paradise
Maybe chat it up with Moses and the rest of the wise
I understand that, but man I they aren't surprised
When I ignore them entirely just to look in your eyes
If I tried to write all I want to say all I want to ask
It'd take shelves and shelves of books its just too timely a task
But we'll have forever without an earthly mask
Well get to see each others truest forms and where we're best

Ain't time to scar its an open wound
It's a feeling that I can't get through
I didn't even get to introduce myself to you

Alright I've gotta go now wish I could leave
Wish I could join you up right now I can't even conceive
Of what it's like but I'm not done here so just for a few
Please know I love you and I'm coming to you soon

God, if there's any way you could show my little brother this
Please let him know I can't wait to finally meet him for the first time