Sometimes

Sometimes Lyrics

[Verse]
Sometimes I laugh at myself so I can stay sane
Sometimes I cut my arm so I can numb the pain
Take a bottle to the head
Bullet to the brain
I ain’t at that step yet
But any day
Sometimes I cry in the rain so people don’t ask
What is wrong
What’s the problem
Why you so sad
I just brush it off and say nothing
I’m good dad
I just forgot my umbrella
I am not sad
I’m looking good but on the inside
I wanna fucking die
Take the rope and put that shit round my neck and jump from the sky
Cause these stupid fucking kids always making fun of my eyes
And my hair
And my looks
They making fun of my life
They making fun of my struggles and beat me up cause it’s fun
Every time they bruise me
I wish that I had a gun
Let off a couple of rounds
I see bodies hitting the ground
Enjoying the fucking sound
You running but I have won
That’s that columbine shit
And I don’t give a fuck bitch
If I’m empty
I’m a pull with some more chop sticks
Lock and loaded
Pop shit
Reload it
I won’t quit
Until these bullies on they knees and praying I won’t spit
Yeah sometimes I like to dream
Sometimes I wanna scream
Sometimes I wanna live like a person that’s not me
And that’s the fucking reason I’m hiding behind the screens
Technology is beauty
I wish I was a machine
Feeling no pain
And no emotions
I’ll never open
I know I’m broken
But this bully shit is fucking hopeless
I know you notice
They’re fucking soulless
I can not focus
I think I need therapy but that shit is bogus
But fuck it
I’m a put on a fake smile
Every day and every night
Do it for a while
Go to school and get bullied
Come home and still smile
I don’t need help I promise
Don’t you see the smile
Don’t you see the joy
I’m a happy little boy
I ain’t crying like a bitch and plotting shit to destroy
I’m just living like a toy
No feelings all plastic
Sometimes I feel like Harry Potter
But without the magic
Ain’t this shit tragic
I’ve been praying like a catholic
But god has never answered my blessings
I’m in a panic
Every single year I’ve been praying but never got shit
Now I’m just a fucking punching bag for these dip shits
Now I’m just a hollow human being in this fucking place
Whether it’s raining or not
Tears are rolling down my face
I just wanna replace
All my fucking mistakes
Maybe even blow my brains out with an a-k
Sometimes I feel so close the edge I might jump
Sometimes I feel like running away like Forrest Gump
Sometimes I wanna stare dead center in the barrel
See the fucking bullet that’s gone make me slump
Yeah sometimes I wanna pull it
Sometimes I wanna do it
Sometimes I wanna write my fucking will and just end it
But other times
I just look up and see the light
But sadly
That is only sometimes
My God