hurt people

My shadow goes wherever I go
I'm getting faded, I don't even like Rose
My circle watchin' so I walk a tight rope
I really hate them but they laugh at my jokes
I didn't know, but now I know
That if you give a little, they gon' take more
And if you love a little and you hate more
You can break their heart before they break yours
Stuck in a manic state
Scared I'ma die stuntin'
The way this liquor tastes
Distracts my mind from it
Will I see pearly gates or will I take the plummet?
I keep that money coming
I hope that counts for something
And trust me I know
There's someone up there watching out for me wherever I go
My people waiting up and praying for me to make it home
'Cause niggas dying every day and shawty you never know
It's always weighing on my mental
I gotta watch my back, my family running out of tissues
Ain't broken but I'm bent to tell the truth I'm made of issues
So I can't let you in, cause if I do then they gon' get you
Yeah
My demons chasing me, I keep running
They overtaking me, I couldn't stomach
If it was up to me, I would've done it
But it's not, I got people counting on me
Feel like Clyde up in these streets but I ain't never had a Bonnie
That's why I don't know what it means when you tell me that you love me