Pulling Myself Together

Feels like my soul is corrupted
Like it's been broken and clustered
Lying in rubble, confined to a bubble, in danger of being disrupted
I wonder if it would all hurt less
If I could just bring to the surface
All of the agony dragging me down and be able to manage the crack in my furnace
For I have been burning
Carrying stacks of this burden
Though I've been working on what I'm learning
I couldn't give it up for what I'm earning
I've been a dreamer since I knew what a dream was
Since I grew and have seen lots
Since I flew to forever and followed the sun and its' beaming I've been lost
But you came and found me
Dug out the emotional wreckage around me
You were the rock that was tying me down
When I needed to fly you stood by to re-ground me
You helped me gather my crisis
Soon as you batted your eyelids
Now it's just you and me in the end
Fighting together and shattering diamonds

Everything's scary and dark
I fear it'll tear me apart
Losing my bearings but I've still got a lot to deal with
I'm ready to call it in place
I usually fall on my face
Losing my patience but I've still got a lot to give it
I'm pulling myself together
I'm pulling myself together
I'm putting it all behind these walls before the water drowns me
I'm pulling myself together
I'm pulling myself together
I'm saving myself before it all builds up and falls around me

I used to be brittle and cold
And never could fit in the mold
They told me to flow with the river and go with it 'til it delivers my soul
I never grew up right
Was always abandoned and snubbed like
My family couldn't get love right
I was shoved in a jar and stuck tight
But I never wanted this journey
Suddenly coming to hurt me
Something is bubbling up and it's gonna become the new version and turn me
To someone who's different to me
Isn't how people envisioned I'd be
Chipping away at the image inside of this perfect imprisonment given to me
This prism has failed, the system is flawed
This isn't the way that I wish to be formed
I'll change what I was and I'll live for a cause
That is saving the day from the shit that I brought
It's my fault, should have been wisest
This time I'll do it alright cause
I'm ready for you and me baby to shine in the future as true as these diamonds

Everything's scary and dark
I fear it'll tear me apart
Losing my bearings but I've still got a lot to deal with
I'm ready to call it in place
I usually fall on my face
Losing my patience but I've still got a lot to give it
I'm pulling myself together
I'm pulling myself together
I'm putting it all behind these walls before the water drowns me
I'm pulling myself together
I'm pulling myself together
I'm saving myself before it all builds up and falls around me

I don't need you to respect me
I respect me
I don't need you to love me
I love me
But i want you to know you could know me
If you change your mind
If you change your mind
If you change your mind
If you change your mind

If I could change your mind
If I could change your mind
If I could change it then I could love myself again
If I could change your mind
Why don't you change your mind
If I could change it then I could love myself again
If I could change your mind
If I could change your mind
If I could change it then I could love myself again
If I could change your mind
Why don't you change your mind
If I could change it then I could love myself again
Again, again
I could love myself again

Everything's scary and dark
I fear it'll tear me apart
Losing my bearings but I've still got a lot to deal with
I'm ready to call it in place
I usually fall on my face
Losing my patience but I've still got a lot to give it
I'm pulling myself together
I'm pulling myself together
I'm putting it all behind these walls before the water drowns me
I'm pulling myself together
I'm pulling myself together
I'm saving myself before it all builds up and falls around me