Toxic

What do I do when I’m running on faith
What do I do with the problems I made
What do I do when you’re dropping your face know
You can’t look at me as you’re walking away
It’s like we all knew it was comin today
I begged pleaded I even prayed
But we’re just a mess, we ain’t nothin but stressed
You don’t get it I hate you but need you to stay
Like this isn’t what I thought love was about
That’s what I say as your kicking me out
You used to say we was it it was us well then look at my face and tell me that now
We both need to change but neither know how
We look good in public, compliments wow
But we’re not okay, yo we’re living each day
Like it’s breaking apart while we’re holding it down
This really can’t be that love that we started with
Now it’s all where I’m at and where the fuck I been
Argue in public man that shits embarrassing
Sometimes I wonder is it I got me in
One of us leaves the other starts panicking
One swings for head the other aims for the chin
Till the giggles and laughs but nobody really wins
Wait for next week and go do it all again
Why are we doing this? What are we doing
It’s me versus you but we’re all just losing
We need to change keep making excuses
This isn’t love it’s passion and bruises
I hate you I love you not sure I feel clueless
Brain over heart but both feeling useless
We say that it’s forced then say it’s destiny put away till next time we do it
There’s something wrong with us we need to change
I’m tired of yelling and seeing your pain
I’m tired of every talk being the same
It’s just fighting and yelling we’re going insane
We used to be happy I’m missing those days
Now I’m packing my shit as you beg me to stay
Maybe it’s all from things that I’ve done karma caught up to me making me pay
This can’t be it, this can’t be us
This what I mean when I say I feel stuck
It’s like everyday we just wait to erupt
I know we both see it and still call it love
I just wanna talk to the man up above
Maybe he had a plan that we had to trust
That’s what I cry as you say you’re leaving while you’re sitting deciding if you give a
But I love you
But I love you
But I love you
Baby I know we ain’t right but I love you
We’re a mess I agree
But what they don’t see
Is the days I was broke I had nothing for me, but you didn’t leave
What they don’t see, don’t matter to me
When you say that you love me me you know I believe
I said I wouldn’t leave you, always beneath you
I’m always here that’s a promise I keep
Yeah we got our negative we got our problems
But I go show me someone who really ain’t got em
It’s like me and you are climbing this mountain just happens
To be a little bit -rocky -at bottom
But we know it’s okay, yeah we know it’s okay
That’s why we wake up with a smile everyday
That’s why I see you and I see back faith
Maybe this is the love that my mom said to chase
They judging us now but don’t know who we are
Don’t know how we did it to get it this far
They don’t know bout the days
When I had no heater but would sit in my car while we lookin at stars
They only look at our bruises and scars
But don’t see me and you for the people we are
They don’t see times we would sit at the park
Wishing for happiness with hope on a star
But that’s fine not like they need to know
Anyone judging man they gotta go
Anyone jealous with some bad intentions I say it I mean it man they gotta go
Yeah right now we’re just on a low
I don’t wanna talk just leave me alone
It’s just me got a lot on my mind what the fuck are you saying I’m texting my hoes
Go through my phone I never say no
You’re not making a scene you’re making a show
Who the fuck just called you I saw that phone glow
Nah the fuck you mean that you gotta go
You got mad at me for trynna be lone
Nah who the fucks calling gimme that phone
Oh now your moms right? YOU started this fight
No we ain’t toxic we’re just kinda, oh
But I love you
But I love you
But I love you
Baby I know we ain’t right