What I Don't Have

You and I know what's coming now
We have to blow away this big cloud
I see your eyes and I don't feel your flame
It's very hard to let you go away.

I know what lead us to this extreme point
I am accepting that it was my fault
But even before all of this started to melt
We were together to avoid being alone.

CHORUS
And I'm standing here while you walk out
I am too weak to run and hold your hand
I knew it was over way back in time
But I was sane when you stayed by my side.
I wanna scream and cry and break my heart
I'm sick and tired of facing goodbyes
I was not a good boyfriend and you stayed
And now it's over, I deserve this pain.

I am a free man and I try to smile
Every moment alone is a place to hide
Your presence is everywhere and it will stay
Maybe I need someone to forget and play.

I was scared of being all by myself
It's handy to say that you have someone else
I'm dealing with an emotion that was meant to be
I'm falling deeper, I wanna live again

CHORUS
And I'm standing here while you walk out
I am too weak to run and hold your hand
I knew it was over way back time
But I was sane when you stayed by my side.
I wanna scream and cry and break my heart
I'm sick and tired of facing goodbyes
I was not a good boyfriend and you stayed
And now it's over, I deserve this pain.