She Doesn't See Me

When will I ever learn
There's nothing in life I want to earn
I just wanna live and i wanna breathe
And my own brain chases after me
In bed at night my soul will yearn
In my heart a fire burns
But this is where I give up
Life should've meant more than love
She don't see me
Like I see her
Changing up
The perspective
She's living in
Her own world
And i'm not
a part of it
What's the point in trying?
Darling aint my love
I'll just sit and stare
at the stars above
What do I know,
Living my life for show
I'll never be happy with myself
Always needing someone else
She's a beauty queen
maybe the one for me
But I'm a vote of sympathy
Locked in my mind, she's roaming free
We look past
each other
I Hide my love,
we can't see eye to eye
I think
I love her
She just wants
A shoulder to cry
There's no denying,
No need for justifying
She'll never see me that way
To me, love's a losing game
Try to focus on my breathing
No one cares unless you're screaming
Write a stupid song, sing these worthless words
Ones I'll never say to her
Cuz I dont have the guts, but don't wanna lie
Wouldn't do nothin' I dont wanna try
One more reason to laugh at me
I'm a worthless man with stupid dreams
She's living
Her own life now
She's living
in my head
Problems
Don't fix themselves
No prospects
I'm leaning into dread
There's no point in giving up
But I never feel like I'm enough
Love is all I want anymore
Is this all this life has in store?