In Your Fold

I'm leaving my dorm room
And I'm walking down the stairs
Looking at this life
Is there meaning anywhere?
Not believing what they say
I think they are really scared
They don't wanna realize
There's no heaven way up there
My life is lookin dim
And nobody even cares
I never feel a thing
When I try to say a prayer
I put my arms up high
And I'm squeezin' in the air
God if you are with me
Just touch me if you dare
They say to see the bright side
But when I see the night sky
I don't think there's anyone out there
Who can hear my cries
I think that we're alone
All these religions they abide by
Are just ways to hide
We're all stuck here for a lifetime
The knife was on my wrist
The tears runnin' down my lips
You stuck with me in the thick and thin
You saw my ugliness
But you didn't run or split
Even when I wanted nothin' but to quit
You still stuck with me in the midst
What kind of twisted love is this?
You never cringe when I cry
You never hide from my ugly side
When I've had enough for the night
Ask my mother'if she can wipe my eyes
I'm so sad and helpless when I'm alone
But I'm always someone that you can hold
When I grow up and I get old
Still I'm young when I'm in your fold
My head feels so heavy
The devils they tempt me
The people condemn me
But you never left me
Even when I thought we were rivals
And everyday I'd fight for survival
A part of myself was suicidal
Wanted to die
You said it's not time, though
I said alright
Put me in the fight
Take me on a journey like
Every single night
Yeah I swear I'm just a kid
But I loved a couple lives
Would've missed 'em too
If I blinked a couple times
Yeah you sounded like a whisper
Homie I'll deliver
And it's going down
When I meet you by the river
The blood is gettin' thicker
In my veins it simmers
Better take it from me
'Fore I burst just like a blister got splintered
You never cringe when I cry
You never hide from my ugly side
When I've had enough for the night
Ask my mother'if she can wipe my eyes
I'm so sad and helpless when I'm alone
But I'm always someone that you can hold
When I grow up and I get old
Still I'm young when I'm in your fold
There's a lotta different pieces to my story
That I don't understand
But you did it for the glory
I feel like I am soaring
Cuz the place I was was gory
Now I'm screaming "Lord"
I don't think they can ignore me
Man I'm saying what I want
Will I make it 'til I'm forty?
Satan gotta bounty on my head
I am sure he
Would love to see me dead
So I wake up every morning
With a special purpose
All my blood in this I'm pouring
You never cringe when I cry
You never hide from my ugly side
When I've had enough for the night
Ask my mother'if she can wipe my eyes
I'm so sad and helpless when I'm alone
But I'm always someone that you can hold
When I grow up and I get old
Still I'm young when I'm in your fold