LONELY (feat. TOTTAYY)

Hmm, hmm
I just wanna take a sec to pause and be real
Take away the mic, the melody, and the steel
That's covering my heart cause I don't know what's real
But I really miss those days where I could fucking feel
That feeling
Deep in my chest
Somewhere
Can't find it
You took it I guess
With all your likes, your views But please hold the applause
Intoxicated by those hooks, the looks, and the flaws
It's drugging me
It's like every time I try to be the man that I want
I keep stepping further backwards to the times that haunt
Can't seem to get it fucking right, I keep choosing the wrong font
It's killing me
Damn
Didn't wanna go that far, but it's what I truly feel
I guess this is a song where I finally be real
M3

And the pain comes when I think of you
Bad news when it comes to you
So I'd rather be lonely
I'd rather be lonely
Memories and a broken heart
But I don't know if I went too far
But it's killing me slowly
It's killing me slowly

I keep coming to the days where I think that it's over
Still searching for the light am I getting any closer
Cause I'm fighting for my life just to see a bit further
But it still feels like I'm nowhere
So fuck it not sober
So maybe I can grow into who I wanna be
But until then I keep looking for relief
And just another breath, a holy release
Not me
All these cloudy breaths are built from all my fears
But from this day on through blood, sweat, and tears
I'm be the man my mom says I can be
M3

And the pain comes when I think of you
Bad news when it comes to you
So I'd rather be lonely
I'd rather be lonely
Memories and a broken heart
But I don't know if I went too far
But it's killing me slowly
It's killing me slowly

Yo
I'm living life lessons every breath and every second
Every step and every friendship, every death and every mention
Starts to lessen all the stresses that can sometimes be relentless
Makes you second guess directions and address your own intentions
I'm growing as a person trying to find a better version
Trying to mend what's in my head and always aim to further learning
Got the fire in me burning, I'm inspired and deserving
Stacking gold till I'm old and retire off my earnings
I never misalign, spitting rhymes, it's my time, the watch is mine
I gotta do it for my wife's sacrifice, I gots to shine
Sometimes you're ahead, sometimes you're behind
At the end of the day, the only battle's in your mind
Don't be reckless with other people's heart chords
Also don't put up with those who are reckless with yours
Don't make enemies or pretend to be something you're not
Don't pass up opportunities, you may not get another shot
Remember compliments you receive, forget the insults
Succeed and achieve, but believe in better results
I'm 36, I learn something new every day
Fishing for my flowers like two bouquets
Yeah, king is taking rook, pawn is taking queen
I'm strong on the back laps
I'm fast as lightning McQueen
I wanna live forever but I know that can't be right
It's TOTTAYY back again my friends, good evening and good night

The pain comes when I think of you
Bad news when it comes to you
So I'd rather be lonely
I'd rather be lonely
Memories and a broken heart
But I don't know if I went too far
But it's killing me slowly
It's killing me slowly
Hmm, hmm,
Not sober

Thanks for listening