The Memory Replays

A voice speaks
A phone rings
Can't breathe
Shoot awake from the nightmare
Back to broken sleep
I try to sleep but the memories just won't leave
I still see you in my head

This is where I learned to fear

Trauma cast a shadow
Left me in the cold
Shivering I fear I'll never feel the warmth again
I'm condemned to live
With vivid dreams of screams that ring in my ears
The crisis shuttered my frame
Live in the aftermath

There's the truth you told
But not the one that I know
We lost our best years to crisis
I'm left with a future of shame

The shame of being broken

I bury the man that I thought I would be
Terminal rumination
The coffin nailed shut
Trapped in my casket it all comes rushing back

I still see it
Playing back in my
Head it replays
The memory replays

Am I wrong oh am I wrong?
To want to turn and run?
(Turn and run?)

Nowhere feels like home

Move from place to place
It never feels like home
It never will when you see violence in the walls
It's just a matter of time before it rears its ugly head
Disrupting a calm
I cannot sustain

I hear the phone ringing late
Pray that your hiding place
Will not be your final resting place

I still see it

I keep you at a distance
I push my family away
I can't forget the violence
When our father walked away

I can't relate to anyone
When I try I feel ashamed
Nightmare to reality
The memory replays

We found your car outside
Legs to led
Froze in place
This was your hiding place

This is where I learned to live in fear

Wake up
Wake up
Someone please help us save her
I need you to wake up

Paralysed by the sight of your comatose state
Every single day
The memory replays