feels like

Sometimes it doesn't feel fair
You can look back and see all of our good parts
You know you took that from me
Yeah, I think of you and all that comes to
My mind is how you treated me so ugly
Now I don't wanna relive I just wanna forget
And by now I'm doing okay I'm even having good days
Where my eyes don't always look sad And I get out of bed and I wonder

Is this what getting over you feels like?
Going out with friends on weeknights
And silently drinking my wine when they talk about weddings
But it doesn't really hurt anymore, it just stings a little bit
Cause it feels like in another life I had someone to call my home
And it was beautiful until it was misery
Now I don't know if I'm missing you
Or if I'm just missing me

And I curse your name for being the reason why I get asked out for dinner by this really good guy
But I can't go, I say "it's complicated"
And I can tell he curses your name just the same
And sometimes this bed feels empty and cold But I got so used to sleeping on my own
Not that you would know
I bet she's keeping my side of the bed warm

Is this what getting over you feels like?
Crying lonely tears at midnights
And dying just a little bit inside
Thinking about who you're lying next to
And don't you know it feels like?
I'm attending funerals everyday
Thinking about the man you used to be
And it's a mystery to me how to live with this grief
You know nobody ever taught me

And so it keeps me up at night (I curse your name for being the reason why)
When I walk the streets it walks right by my side (it's complicated)
And that's what getting over you feels like