Seven Years Old..

I didn't know that all these thoughts in my head would come back
And haunt me all these years later
I thought that all these demons had been put to rest
They only found a new place to stay... in my head
Seven years old, he's feeling like he had been eight-teen all his life
Dad I'm sorry mom forgive me
Because that shouldn't have happened and because I can't seem to forgive you

I was just a kid, i didn't know any better...
Just another night eating together at the dinner table
Now at this time, mom and dad haven't been so mad at each other lately
Now i can say for a fact it's probably getting better
But why can't i tell the reason why mommy is running at me and dad like that
Daddy please tell me why she is coming at us like that?
I can't really tell whats going on. son go to your room
Close the door cover your ears and don't cry!
Go now please son go now please son...
Dad why can't i stay with you i just want to help you out
No son, this is all my doing
Go to your room and i'm oh so sorry...

I didn't know that all these thoughts in my head would come back
And haunt me all these years later
I thought that all these demons had been put to rest
They only found a new place to stay... in my head
Seven years old, he's feeling like he had been eight-teen all his life
Dad I'm sorry mom forgive me
Because that shouldn't have happened and because I can't seem to forgive you

There he is on the ground
Even with his hands covering his ears
He still seems to hear every single sound
He's feeling like he can cry louder and then he won't hear his mother
Or maybe he can find an escape route to get the hell out of there...
Couple months down the line, my dad had gotten relocated couple hours up
Then we all move for a clean slate instead i found the end around every corner
Wishing and hoping i would open my eyes and everything would be better
But the more i hoped and prayed and then actually opened my eyes
Just made me see that every single thing in this world will try to sting you so deep
That it'll find a new way to break your soul so that way till the end of time
You can never be repaired...

I didn't know that all these thoughts in my head would come back
And haunt me all these years later
I thought that all these demons had been put to rest
They only found a new place to stay... in my head
Seven years old, he's feeling like he had been eight-teen all his life
Dad I'm sorry mom forgive me
Because that shouldn't have happened and because I can't seem to forgive you