Blessed, I Guess

Them hard times be the best times
Hold on to that pain blessing all within
And I know to keep our head high

Them hard times be the best
Born cursed, tatted on my neck
Took me a minute, just to realize I was blessed
Full of pain and stress but I'm too busy trying to gain success
Fuck the fame, I won't ever change
Don't want my name in the press
My therapist asked how I been feeling
Between insane and depressed
I can't lie, I'm traumatized from putting angels to rest
Daddy blood, sickly child, I gotta deal with my health
I can't believe it was a time I thought 'bout killing myself

But I'm blessed, I guess
I know you wanna see a nigga down, I ain't going
You think you lost deep down inside, you done won
What it's gon' take for you to realize you the one
Don't forget you are loved at your best
You just gotta wait on your time, it'll come
I'm paranoid, my brother died with his gun
Just remember me when it's all said and done

They say you get wiser when you grow older
But I cannot wait until all this shit over
You know God give His toughest battles to His strongest soldiers
A wise man once told me, it's about survival, without you, it ain't no dreams
How you forget about your niggas though? Must be a I in your team
How they gon' judge the way I'm living though? When they don't even know me
Say you one hundred, gotta show me that
How they gon' try to hold me back?
Say they with me, ain't even notice that
Why ain't nobody told me that?
Now in days everybody rapping, I don't know what's facts
But I had to put in the grind, no time to relax
Nah, I ain't even in my prime, I keep reminding me that
Ten years from now, out of sight, out of mind
Where I'll probably be at

But I'm blessed, I guess
I know you wanna see a nigga down, I ain't going
You think you lost deep down inside, you done won
What it's gon' take for you to realize you the one
Don't forget you are loved at your best
I know you wanna see a nigga down, I ain't going
You think you lost deep down inside, you done won
What it's gon' take for you to realize you the one
Don't forget you are loved at your best
You just gotta wait on your time, it'll come
I'm paranoid, my brother died with his gun
Just remember me when it's all said and done