Guess Not
Guess not everybody knows this
I guess not everybody noticed
I guess that's when I lost my focus
This process it's a lot to process, yes
Everybody knows this
I guess not everybody noticed
I guess that's when i lost my focus
No one knows about me
I don't really share much
Make up stuff to conceal like an airbrush
Take drugs just for the feel of the head rush, yeah but
Probably shouldn't, told my mum i wouldn't
I'm tryin' to reach god but i might as well ask J Peele why he made 'Us'
Cause I don't get answers
Horror movie began for us with my dad's cancerous diagnosis
His daughter cryin' there we can't prevent him dying no sis
We won't let him die alone sis
Makin' up our own prognosis it goes his
Chest drop, breath stop, head flop, dead pop
Best off left for the next plot
Pressed off, clear his desk top- man i guess not
Guess not everybody knows this
I guess not everybody noticed
I guess that's when I lost my focus
This process it's a lot to process, yes
Everybody knows this
I guess not everybody noticed
I guess that's when i lost my focus
Abusing it much?
Tryna blame your situation and using it for a crutch
You don't get up to much, you're getting out of touch
Pretty soon you won't know how to touch so i suggest
You stop moping, hoping there won't be a sadder day
You might enjoy the nighttime
You might be sad today
So just enjoy your lifetime and don't procrastinate
Wait, can we push this back to Saturday, is that ok?
I didn't write this shit 'cause I think I'm the best
I needed time to get the funk up off my chest
It's stumped me I'm a mess
Slumped, I'm in distress
Ba - da, ba - da, ba - da, ba- da. Fuck me I'm depressed
Mama thinks i'm perfect
I don't think I deserve it
The angel and demon seem to be teaming up and screamin
It's the type of shit i'm versing
Only right I get a verse in
Guess not everybody knows this
I guess not everybody noticed
I guess that's when I lost my focus
This process it's a lot to process, yes
Everybody knows this
I guess not everybody noticed
I guess that's when i lost my focus
My head heavy, afraid and unsure
Hands sweaty, barely able to scrawl
Now my problems seem to be teaming up and making a wall I can't climb
So I rhyme and fly away from it all
But this weight i can feel on my shoulders
Even when I'm stoned, still feels like a boulder
I guess that's what history told us:
Same fate awaits us all, we don't keep getting older
So
I'd like to thank you for listening
Dad's at the doc's, ain't exactly a fisherman
I heard him say the cancer was tripling
Now my carryover champ has to battle this shit again
And I'm crying a lot, what
Man I'm trying to stop, 'cause every time I pen a rhyme
I guess it's like I forgot
Until my tears hit the page and I'm writing it off