Forever Ugly

I've been waiting for this night to end
Gun's been firing inside my head
Sentences blur out and make no sense
Anxiety won't let me understand

Thoughts that I've wanted to share
If you could help me grasp it
You'd see the holes that I have
The vivid cold within me

Thoughts that I don't want to Share
What if i drag you with me
Know you don't wanna be here
This place will be forever ugly

Time slows down when I stay in my space
Friends are starting lives and getting paid
All that i want is to grow
The road just feel(s) too narrow
Desperate to leap but still afraid

I've been running circles in my head
Still I lose my hope close to the end
Talking in the mirror to myself
Wish that I could tell you what I said

Thoughts that I've wanted to share
If you could help me grasp it
You'd see the holes that I have
The vivid cold within me

Thoughts that I don't want to Share
What if i drag you with me
Know you don't wanna be here
This place will be forever ugly

Ah Ah Ah
This place will be forever ugly
This place will be forever ugly
Ah ah ah

I've been running circles in my head
Still I lose my hope close to the end
Talking in the mirror to myself
Wish that I could tell you that,
This place will be forever ugly