Ain't Gonna Cry

I ainʼt gonna cry
I ainʼt gonna cry

What is my mission
Why am I swimming
In the dirty water
Of a bad decision

Forty days and nights
I been losing my mind
Cause I donʼt know whatʼs wrong
Or how to make it right

I ainʼt gonna cry
I ainʼt gonna cry
I donʼt know how to pray
I sing hallelujah anyway
I ainʼt gonna cry

Not a child
But yet I am not free
Stuck in the miles
Of somewhere in-between

Coming of age in this day and age
Is a long hard fight
You gotta sacrifice
You gotta bleed

I ainʼt gonna cry
I ainʼt gonna cry
When the choirʼs gone away
I sing hallelujah anyway
I ainʼt gonna cry

All of these feelings
Iʼve suppressing
Gotta get em off my chest
Iʼm a little unhinged I guess

Is it factual
Or is it all in my head
Now Iʼm unemployed
Canʼt avoid the void, feeling paranoid

I ainʼt gonna cry
I ainʼt gonna cry
When my soul has gone astray
I sing hallelujah anyway

My eyes, staying dry
My eyes, staying dry
Gonna find it
See the light
Got a wall Iʼm building
Got a chance, god willing
To hang on to my pride