bleed

Just spent a little time away
Contemplating everything
Pondered how my vices serve my life
Debating if I need them
See I'm no saint but I'm no bum
I just paint the inside of my cup and turn my mind into a brush
'till it flows like water
Saturating my veins
I don't bother staying all that sane
I just need a drank
I just need a smoke
I just need a girl but I don't need these hoes
I just need myself
I don't need no help
Stop texting my friends just to feel alone
Let that feeling grow 'till it turns to song
'till it fills the hole I made in my heart
Bleed
Bleeding out so good
Light headed as fuck
Soaking in this bathtub filled with emotion
Popping a red pill and breathing in
Breathe out and sinking in
I see it all vividly
It's so pretty and tragic
I cry on this fabric I've worn for 5 days straight
It's seen all my habits
I play my keys and I sing my songs
The crowd loves it give a round of a applause
Just spent a little time alone
Put my pieces in poem
Tore it all apart to make puzzle
Put it back together
See if I can find a better line
To describe the thoughts up in my mind
See what wisdom I can find
'till it comes together
See it on the page
Read the letters
Realize my fate
I can't fill my plate
Pile it up with love and sit down to sing
Only space for one
Only space for me
Find myself in greed
I want all the time for the things I seek
I just wanna be everything I can
Can't be losing limbs giving out my hand
Bleed
Bleeding out so good
Light headed as fuck
Sleeping by a figure that I had known once
Hit a few times before breathing in
Breathe out and sinking in
I feel it all vividly
It's so pretty and tragic
The marks on the fabric
The paintings we made on a canvas of plastic
Last nights been smeared by the next days sun
We both loved it what a shame that I'm gone