What Can I Do Now
Some bodies on the case
Erybody’s all awake
Gunshots all up in the air
More bullets fly away
Sirens I’m hearing em (sirens I’m hearing em)
My people are fearing em (people are fearing em)
The police are killing em (police are killing em)
Nobody believing em (nobody believing em)
It’s a sick, twisted, world, yet I, knew I would’ve been
Just another known statistic if I went deeper within
Since my, brothers, were all, in it, I was, sickened, to begin
Start another, chain reaction in the city of Richmond
2012 I was closer to my doom
Not because the world was ending, but because I was confused
Taught these kids how to bang, little soldiers I’d recruit
Now I look back to the past, think of what they went through
Did some coke, smoke some weed, threatened people outta beef
Tryna seduce different women, living lavishly to me
I was tryna build an army, make a kingdom as a king
I was blind to my own slavery, I did not want to see
What Could I Do Now, Do Now
Just let it go, just let it go
As If I Knew How, Knew How
There's always hope, there's always hope
I thought I had the squad out, But sum I never thought out
Was could I go more far out, Than anything I kept on now
My search for power was my remedy from pain
And the trauma that I had, ever since until that day
The times I was wylin, fighting, doing, Pushing my motives, now pursuing
Something more darker, had my crew, wanted to group more firm for the blue
But lately was making a fool outta myself, Was spitting these lyrics, wanted to rebel
Against all who help me, I always would tell, “Forget all the help, if I die then Oh Well”
Always resisted, they literally get, persistent and wished that one day I'd regret
From trying to bang cuz I’m wasting my sweat, My momma would pray that one day I’d repent
My mom wasn’t Christian, or at least not yet, all she could do was just hope for the best
Like you know how worried your mother would get, because I want more than to be a cadet
I wanted to show I was fit for the set, I’d throw up the flag and be put to the test
I’d look up to homies who held up the set, my brothers would stop but I’d go on instead
“Like Hold Up, you think that after all this is a game
You better put it down, and make sure you ain’t a lame”
What Could I Do Now, Do Now
Just let it go, just let it go
As If I Knew How, Knew How
There's always hope, there's always hope
I think back about the times that I was chased with my brothers
Like my thoughts would be to put these rival bangers to the gutter
6 Feet deep would be my thinking, slowly getting bloodthirsty
Since my dad was gone away, wanted some to think I’m worthy
Butterfly knife, brass knuckles, 22 I’d keep away
Had it ready for my homies, in case if someone would spray
I knew well it’s not okay, I felt like I made a mistake
But the one thought that would grab me was “Don’t be a punk, mayne”
Did some spraying and some vandalism, thinking I was could handle living
After homies passed away was thinking, “I can’t keep pretending”
Felt I couldn’t do it so I tried to kill myself
Second time matter of fact, bruh for sure mentally ill
It was not until I knew I felt the need for someone greater
So a homie told me that I need to meet the true Creator
Looking back six years later, best decision that I made
I no longer bang a color, I’m a whole new man today
What Could I Do Now, Do Now
Just let it go, just let it go
As If I Knew How, Knew How
There's always hope, there's always hope